Thursday, January 17, 2013

My hair is falling out and my tears are flowing....


Jan 17th, 2013   My eyes fill with TEARS as I realize there are huge amounts of my hair in my brush.



Two weeks after my first chemo and my hair is coming out in clumps today.
I woke up with the skin on my head kind of hurting. 
Did not think too much of it. Just thought I slept wrong on it (the soreness you feel)  like when you let a pony tail down. However after my shower I noticed entire strands and clumps in my brush. So I finished drying it without pulling to straighten and style it with my brush - to preserve as much as I can - as long as I can. At least through Saturday I hope. I have a funeral to go to – to support my very DEAR Friend Lynette. Her brother just passed – who fought a heroic battle against melanoma cancer. He was very dear to Lynette. 
  
So tonight I will sleep on my satin pillowcase. And I guess next week - will not only be my second treatment - but the week I shave my head. UGGgggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
This is becoming a real moment for me. And it will not be easy.
I know thousands of women have done this and I can too. But it sure is not going to be fun.

Pray for me, I will need strength to adjust and be able to go back to work in two weeks. That will be the hardest - I think.   

3 comments:

  1. Live for what tomorrow has to offer........
    Your husband (what an awesome man)
    Your son (who keeps you on your toes)
    Your family
    Your friends
    Your life
    Your pets
    All the people who love you (and there are many)
    Your ups, your downs, and all moments in between
    and most importantly......
    Your God who is with you every step of the way


    Not what yesterday has taken away.
    Your hair will come back better than ever!

    Love Melissa

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  2. FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND
    One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
    Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
    In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
    Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
    other times there were one set of footprints.

    This bothered me because I noticed
    that during the low periods of my life,
    when I was suffering from
    anguish, sorrow or defeat,
    I could see only one set of footprints.

    So I said to the Lord,
    "You promised me Lord,
    that if I followed you,
    you would walk with me always.
    But I have noticed that during
    the most trying periods of my life
    there have only been one
    set of footprints in the sand.
    Why, when I needed you most,
    you have not been there for me?"

    The Lord replied,
    "The times when you have
    seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
    is when I carried you."

    He is and will carry you Kelly.....Hang in there love.
    Melissa

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